 I can't believe we are still dealing with this sh*t!
Recently I received an email from a man challenging my information. When I emailed him back with proof he started bullying me for supporting my information. If I were a man he would have never responded the way he did. He would have never challenged the information I first sent him. "Ignore him." I was told. That would have worked for me in the 1970s and even the 1980s, but not now. When Emily died I was left the only female in our home. I feel it. I feel the lack of feminine energy in our home. My husband and son are feminists. I am equal in everyway in our home. I feel it. The men who know me treat me well. Men have come a long way -- but it's clearly not enough men have been paying attention. What have you noticed? Have you ever thought, 'If I were a man I wouldn't have been treated this way."?  In 2010 I stumbled across CreativeLive, an online teaching platform for creatives. Their model is offering free LIVE online classes and workshops and sell the recordings afterwards. Subjects range from photography, to entrepreneurship, to arts, design, and makers. It was awesome! During the free live classes I participated in the chat room and made new creative friends that I'm still in touch with.
As I took one class after another, I thought, 'Online classes are the future, I need to join this magical industry.' In 1998 I started teaching fitness classes. During a workshop for fitness instructors, my boss mentioned that she had to find a fitness instructor to teach children's classes. My daughter, Emily, was 4.5 years old and starting kindergarten September 1998. By her December 5th birthday that year, I was teaching children's fitness classes during Emily's school hours. This lead to teaching children's art classes. Teaching fitness to adults a couple of evenings a week and teaching children's art and kindergym classes while Emily was in school worked out perfectly. By 2010 when I found CreativeLive I was ready to move some of my adult in-person classes ONLINE! During a CreativeLive class an instructor mentioned that she taught on Skillshare and she sent everyone a link to a free Skillshare trial. I joined Skillshare as a student and learned how to turn a few of my art classes to online art classes. I re-branded a couple of times as my teaching evolved from teaching art to teaching art business and social media marketing. I spent several years on Skillshare, but it wasn't generating the full-time income that I wanted. So I started looking for other ways to earn income doing things that I liked doing. Around that time I read that China's middle class was growing quickly. I said to my husband, "What I need to do is figure out what Chinese middle class families want to buy and sell them that!" I was also looking to continue working from home so that I could continue being available for my kids. My research took me to teaching online English classes to students in China. I had the credentials, experience, and enthusiasm to teach online ESL classes. In retrospect I realized that I was able to recognize earning trends. I also got into new venture trends at the perfect times, long before industry saturation. My job or career criteria remained the same; flexible hours, excellent pay, and above all -- it had to be joyful. Building online classes generated passive income -- courses I made in 2014 still pay monthly royalties -- not a huge amount, but enough to buy two beehives, eleven chickens, and four bunnies for my homestead this year. My ESL work was more structured with defined schedules, but I set the hours that I wanted to work. When the pandemic hit all of my in-person classes were cancelled, postponed, or adjusted to online courses. The art business courses that I created were busier than ever before leading to new contracts with art councils, galleries, and colleges. As the pandemic appeared to have reached it's climax, people started to see the other side of lockdown. They are prioritizing post-pandemic life to include fulfilling their Bucket List. Right around the time I looked into my crystal ball of what will trend post-pandemic. The Chinese government stopped foreign teachers from teaching online to young students in China. I wanted to replace my lost ESL time and income with a post-pandemic Bucket List item. TRAVEL. Although we are early in post-pandemic vacation planning, I decided to dust off my TICO certificate (to sell travel in Ontario, Canada one must be TICO certified -- which I am -- saving that information for another blog.) I enrolled in several courses to update my travel industry knowledge and joined a well respected travel company. The next trend is travel. Not any travel -- unique travel that blends personal interests with scenic and beautiful destinations. Bucket List travel like hiking around Machu Picchu, knitting on Scotland's Fair Isle, or making a Faroese shawl on Faroe Island, visiting places from favourite novels, learning to weave in Peru, yurt building in Mongolia, painting on the Left Bank, taking a sculpting lesson in Florence, Italy, the birth place of Michelangelo. That is the next trend. So tell me -- what is your Bucket List dream vacation and activity?  CRAFTIVISM MANIFESTO
A craftivist is anyone who uses their craft to help the greater good. Your craft is your voice. Craftivism is about raising consciousness, creating a better world stitch by stitch, and things made by hand, by a person. It's also about sharing ideas with others in a way that is welcoming, not dividing, and celebrating traditional skills in new ways. As well as remembering and respecting the makers that came before us, adding to the dialogue and leaving something for the next generations of craftivists. Craftivism is about creating wider conversations about uncomfortable social issues. A craftivist is anyone who uses their craft to help the greater good or in resistance to a greater societal ill. A single individual crafting can make a difference. Or they can craft together and benefit from the fellowship of other crafters. Craftivists open minds and hearts. It's about connecting through and with craft and creating a more compassionate community. Craftivists are makers, hackers, menders and modifiers of material things. My craftivism can be different from your craftivism and that's okay. Craftivism encourages people to challenge injustice and find creative solutions to conflict. Craftivism does not expect you to come with skills but with willingness. Craft is often seen as a benign, passive and (predominantly female) domestic pastime. By taking these stereotypes and subverting them, craftivists are making craft a useful tool of peaceful, proactive and political protest. Craftivism is a way to make big issues tangible, so that we can build a better world together. Craftivism is about reclaiming the slow process of creating by hand, with thought, with purpose and with love. Because activism, whether through craft or any other means, is done by individuals, not machines. Craftivism is a tool to instantly create a small part of the warmer, friendlier and more colorful world we hope to see in the future. This manifesto was written by Mary Callahan Baumstark, Ele Carpenter, Joanna Davies, Tamara Goo derham, Betsy Greer, Bridget Harvey, Rebecca Marsh, Manna Marvel, Ari Miller, Iris Nectar, Abi Niel sen, Elin Poppelin and Cat Varvis. Craftivism Project #FastFashionRebellion #FastFashionRebel #SlowFashionMovement #CraftivismCanada #VisibleMending Fast fashion refers to low-priced clothing made overseas using substandard materials intended to make consumers buy frequently. Essentially, disposable clothing. It's hard to resist that $5 t-shirt -- especially while living on a budget. The problem is that the billion dollar fashion industry misleads us about the true cost of that $5 t-shirt. The negative impact on our ecosystem has already caught up to us by polluting water, air, and soil. Synthetic materials are by-products of petroleum and are non-biodegradable. Synthetic products take a long time to decompose, creating long-term pollution + accumulate in landfills. Natural fibers, like cotton, are grown using pesticides harming pollinating insects. Fast fashion displaces animals by over-using + polluting their water + food sources. Overseas manufacturers employ mostly women who pay the price by working in poor working conditions at subpar wages. The fast fashion industry literally killed people in 2013 with the collapse of the Dhaka Garment Factory. 1,134 people lost their lives. What can you do?
 Year One beekeepers (me) are encouraged to inspect hives more frequently than Year Two onwards to gain experience. I took a beekeeping course in 2018 + have been studying beekeeping ever since. I'm grateful for academic knowledge but nothing compares to getting right in there + doing the work.
My inspection plan is simple; check hives for health + growth about once a week -- during good weather -- anytime between 10am-ish to 4pm-ish -- when the forager bees are out, OR when my intuition says to check them. Every inspection reveals a wealth of information. Yesterday, I inspected HIVE 1. It appears to be the weaker of the two hives. So I moved empty frames in place of full frames in two spots to see if that draws the bees to fill empty frames. Each box has 10 frames. I started a couple of weeks ago with two nucs -- a nuc is 4 to 5 frames with everything needed to start a bee hive. The nucs I purchased each have five frames filled with honey bee workers, drones + a queen, a full frame of capped honey + brood in other frames. Brood are the bees -- the cycle -- the queens lays over 1000 eggs a day in cells. The younger worker bees care for the eggs, feed + nurture them + help them at birth in a few days. During an inspection I look for brood growth. I started with five full frames -- now there are over six full frames in each of the two separate hives. Growth. New beekeepers are encouraged to start with two hives instead of one. If one hive is weak the second stronger hive can support the weaker one by donating a strong frame. Makes sense. I can see how my two hives differ already. Today I inspected HIVE 2. More experienced beekeepers online were telling me to remove the second box on my hives. The second box is where the bees store honey. When the brood box is full, the second box is their honey stores. They can use the honey stores to feed new baby bees, drones, themselves, the queen + for the winter. Any boxes added on top of the second box is supposed to be my honey, but for this first year I don't plan to take more than a jar or two of honey for myself. The online beekeepers suggested to wait until the brood boxes are 80% full before adding the second box. So today's HIVE 2 inspection was to include the removal of the second box. And I wanted to add sticky paper to the screened bottom board to see if the hive has varroa mites. When I was done I started to second guess myself. HIVE 2 had a lot of full frames. Why did I remove the second box? They will need more space very soon. If anything I should left the second box on HIVE 2 + remove it from HIVE 1, the weaker hive. I took a break to think. Online beekeeping advise is much appreciated + helpful -- but my intuition said that the second box is necessary. So back I went. This time I managed to do a lot of heavy lifting work to rearrange the cinder blocks for better ratchet tie down security, tilted the back of the boxes up a bit for water drainage during rain storms + took a peek in HIVE 1 to see that moving the empty frames did indeed make the hive stronger. Lesson: Trust my instincts. I managed to piss off about 30,000 honey bees with all the moving around, but it's done now. No stings yet. Two cinder blocks aren't in the best shape so they will need replacing before going into winter. Life metaphors of raising honey bees is becoming more apparent with every hive inspection + might even be an inspirational book one day -- especially the similarities of beekeeping + my daughter Emily's life + death. So far, so good. I am honored to call myself a beekeeper. I am grateful for this opportunity. Live your dreams --  Creatively speaking, working within limits is something that most artists do but might not be aware of its comforts. Artists are limited by skill, knowledge, time, and geography -- although to a lesser extent due to covid19. In this article I will address my upcoming limits of art material and supplies, and our cabin in the woods.
In a few days I will be moving my 11 one-month old chicks, the dog, and myself to our cabin in the woods until it gets too cold to live there. My son and husband will divide their time between the cabin and our urban home in the GTA (Greater Toronto Area). This plan was in the making several months before Emily died. She was thrilled about the potential of living in our GTA home without us hovering over her. Having studied about raising chickens for years, living away from Emily gave me the confidence that I wouldn’t pass salmonella or some other fatal bird disease to her. Our cabin in the woods is off-the-grid. That means we aren’t connected to municipal services such as water or electricity. We generate our own power with four solar panels that feed two batteries to power lights, television, laptops, and cell phones. If we need more power to run the ice maker (ice for coolers -- our source of refrigeration), vacuum, heaters, toaster, and coffee maker, we turn on the gas generator briefly. Gary, my husband, connected the generator to top up the batteries when it’s running. He’s so clever. We bring our own water to the cabin from the city and top up the huge water jugs in the local towns when we have the need. We used to employ a cistern system by collecting water in rain barrels, turning on the generator to use the water pump to send lower rain barrel water to the rain barrel on the roof and creating a gravity feed system. Yes, it was complicated, and we were never confident about the safety of using water filtered through animal droppings on the roof. Our future plans involve purchasing a filtration system that will pump creek water to the roof barrel -- but that’s on the long list of future plans that we are slow to achieve. For now city water works and doesn’t feel like work. We have enough water to shower, wash dishes, drink, and cook. We have seriously neglected cabin maintenance for about three years. We rarely spent any time at the cabin due to being at hospital with Emily and now covid19. Our 2.5 acre property has a 500 square foot main cabin -- I call it the green house, a cute little 144 square foot bunkie that was once my art studio. There are two capped outhouses each with an open air lean-to, a working outhouse with an outdoor shower that we still use, and a man-cave shed with a lean-to. That lean-to collapsed under this past winter’s snow putting another thing on our TO DO List. Both capped outhouses are used for storage now, one will be converted into a chicken coop next week. My packing list is getting long -- too long. Of course I will load up the chicks, their feed, and wood shavings. There is already a bale of straw in the truck of my hatchback for the chicken coop. I have limited car space so Gary will drive up with Evan, the dog, food, water, coolers, and their clothing. I will bring my clothing and work to the cabin. Here lies one of my limits. I can only get so much stuff in my car. The necessities for work are two laptops, cell phone, and textile materials. That list got long -- fabric, thread, needles, sewing equipment (minus a sewing machine, all hand sewing off-the-grid), embroidery hoops, embroidery floss and thread, scissors, beads, jewelry findings, jewelry making tools, wire, watercolour paint and brushes for watercolour embroidery -- and then there are fibre arts supplies; wool, knitting needles, crochet hooks, fleece, roving, felting needles, felting block, wet felting supplies, and all the spinning stuff. Nope. I cut the spinning stuff early in my list making -- I was overwhelmed with which spinning wheel to bring, drop spindles, raw sheep fleece, alpaca fleece, and swifts. I need to address my limits. Felting, both needle and wet felting are off the list. If I absolutely need these things I will bring them up later in the summer when I am in the city for my second covid19 vaccine. I pulled out three bins of jewelry making supplies yesterday - nope. I plan to set limits on them today. I’m not bringing my sewing machine -- it requires too much electricity and it’s bulky. Handing sewing in nature suits me best anyway. Watercolour embroidery is off the list too. I will bring enough embroidery supplies to make the small craftivism banners that are on my summer list. Skeins of wool are easy to remove from the list because my favourite wool is sold at the local shop. My new packing list contains; small amount of fabric to make the fabric jewelry that I have already committed myself to making for others, sewing supplies for those projects, two sizes of embroidery hoops and a few colours of floss, my favourite two crochet hooks, 4 circular knitting needles, 5 skeins of wool, a few beads that compliment the fabric I bring, silver jewelry findings, silver wire, one jewelry tool, a few sewing notions. There are benefits to the limits I set for myself. Limiting myself to making only silver jewelry is a tremendous help for selecting which beads, thread, and fabric I bring. Focusing on these few things will allow my imagination to ignite. Inspiration from being in the forest among the grand Canadian Shield rock, rivers + lakes will be the backdrop to new ideas + art materials. Limitations provide us with creative thinking + allow us to look at possibilities with new vision. I’ll keep you posted on the progress of the chickens, cabin, and art work. You can also see updates on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/sandra.clarke.canada/ Have a great day! Sandra  In my personal life 2021 started with overwhelming sadness from the death of my 27-year old daughter Emily. Visible mending has been EXTREMELY visible with this part of my life. In my professional life 2021 started with an unbelievably, wonderful creative contract. In late December 2020, my daughter, Emily, was in hospital due to complications from her May 2019 heart transplant. I received an email from a friend + art director about a program coordinator 3-month contract coming in January. As I read the position description I knew this was a great opportunity. The Arts Council of Highlands Highlands (Ontario) received funding from the Haliburton County Development Corporation to create a 3-month program teaching Haliburton area artists + makers how to build, or rebuild, their online digital presence. Covid hastened the need for online presence. I applied for the Program Coordinator position at the arts council’s The Digital Comfort Studio. Emily died on January 1st, 2021. My interview was scheduled a few days later. I emailed the committee to let them know about Emily + I would withdraw my application if necessary. I didn’t know how I would react from moment to moment dealing with the raw emotions of losing a child. Would I burst into tears during the interview? If I was offered the opportunity, would I be able to finish it? For 27-years everything I did was contingent on Emily's heart health. Every job, event + commitment was prefaced with, “If my daughter needs me I need a leave of absence.” I was offered the program coordinator job. For the first time in 27-years I was making a commitment without the need to preface. Saying that, if my husband or son need me in any way I would also need a leave of absence, but likely to a lesser degree than with Emily -- unless an emergency of course. The Digital Comfort Studio was a great success. So much so that we are looking for ways to build onto the program + offer it to a wider audience. (let me know if you are interested -- email: sandra@sandraclarke.ca) I am grateful for the opportunity given to me from Pat Jones, Chris Lynd, Tammy Rea of The Arts Council of Haliburton Highlands + The Digital Comfort Studio. Tammy is creating an online magazine about The Digital Comfort Studio pilot program for new participants to view + learn from. (again, let me know if you are interested -- email: sandra@sandraclarke.ca) I find the 1st of the month to be painful as it marks the monthly anniversary of Emily’s death. It’s a process. Everything is fine -- until it’s not. I find myself applying for more art grants + creative contracts with 100% confidence in my commitment to complete them using the best of my abilities. I am excited about the future. I am giving my craftivism + vending mending projects the time + energy that they deserve. I am calling this part of my life Chapter 3. Thanks for reading + thanks for being a part of my Chapter 3. P.S. I am a Chicken Mom now. 11 Columbian Rock X hens, they are just over a week home now. Stay tuned for chicken update. xoxo  Today's Visible Mending blog is about fitness + weight loss. A person's body is visible to most + mending it comes in many forms.
As I mentioned in my first blog -- fitness + weight has been a lifelong issue for me. When looking back in time I came to the conclusion that my weight gain started when I was 12-years old. It took me years of self investigation to uncover what happened when I was 12 that had me turn to food for comfort. I'll likely reveal the event in another blog post. But for today I will stay on the fitness + weight loss issues. I self-medicate with sugar + fat. I love sugar + fat! But, of course, they are killers + I have to be mindful of consuming these foods. I have been dieting off + on since I was 12-years old. As an adult I've been as low as 118 lbs. -- where I was dangerously heading towards anorexia, and as high was 250 lbs. -- where it's difficult to do anything. When the pandemic started I was 250 lbs. Within the first 10 months of Covid-19, I lost 50 lbs. as a result of staying in the moment + paying attention to my eating habits. After Emily died I didn't care what I ate and gain a few lbs. back. Last week, I realized that my 10 baby chicks will be ready for pick up in 5-weeks. They will remain in the brooder, inside the cabin, for about 6-weeks. That means I have 11-weeks to build their chicken coop. No way could I do the physical work of building a coop. So I got mindful + started watching my diet again. I feel so much better when I don't eat junk. I lost 5 lbs. with at least 20 more to go. I'm confident that those 20 lbs will come off around the time I finish building the chicken coop. I don't usually buy new clothes unless I absolutely have to. I rather repair or resize the clothing that I already own. However, today I bought a new comfy dress. Size L. I'll try it on later. I think it will fit. So here I am -- making health a priority. How about you? What's your health status? Want to do this together? |
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